Ode to Anxiety

Brick on my chest

Struggle for breath

Weight of the world

Praying for death

Feeling them boulders

Roll down my shoulders

Land on my lungs

The oxygens flowing

Out of my body

Out of control

Fucking anxiety’s 

Taking it’s toll

Pain’s deep and wide

My chains made of iron

I’m a gazelle

This shit is a lion

Stinging my eyes

And peeling em wide 

I’m too scared to close em

Straight terrified

Heartbreak aint strong

Enough to describe it

Cardiac Shatter

Sound way more like it

You see me smiling

See whats behind it 

My teeth are fractured 

My tongue is silent

Digging the knife in

I can’t stop crying

The pain remains

Long after the violence

Trapped in my mind

With nowhere to climb

Stuck at the bottom

I’m outta time

Can’t reach the surface 

I’m getting nervous 

Losing my patience 

Losing my purpose

Losing this race

Can’t keep up the pace

My legs are tired

Can’t feel my face 

It’s too much to juggle

Constantly struggle 

None of these pieces

Fit in my puzzle

Weakening muscle 

I start to buckle 

Under the pressure 

Foundation crumbles

Searching for pleasure

I deserve better

I end up buried

Seeking my treasure 

There’s no escape 

Must be my fate

I was created 

To bear this weight

Bend til I break 

Tremble and shake

But I aint dead yet

Make no mistake

Wait for the comeback

Shake off this hunchback

Straighten my shoulders

I’m gonna unpack

All of this baggage

Too much to manage

Weighing me down

But I’ll make it vanish

Into thin air

And then I’ll appear

Before you and then

It all will be clear

That this was my challenge 

To overcome

When all’s said and done

I played it and won